Get that gin off your chin.

We must force this insatiable desire within us, which is always oriented towards outward things and has its domain in an imaginary future, to close in on itself and bring its main thrust round to the present.

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—	Simone Weil, with thanks to Meetings on the Path to Awakening. (via surelysober)

All living things contain a measure of madness that moves them in strange, sometimes inexplicable ways. This madness can be saving; it is part and parcel of the ability to adapt. Without it, no species would survive.

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—	Yann Martel, Life of Pi (via inspirationalrecovery) I am the madness.

Went to my first AA meeting tonight.

Wow. Just wow.

In so many good ways.

This is Day 5.

Forcing myself to go back to work today.

Even though I lost my voice and I’m only running on about 3 hours of sleep. Couldn’t help myself. I was texting with a boy all night.

Ugggghh. I got it so bad. I can’t remember the last time I lost sleep over someone like this.

This is Day 4.

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.

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—	Buddha (via tapdancingonalandmine)

Tomorrow

I’m having dinner with my best friend! Who I actually haven’t seen since my birthday, back in October. Before we met for lunch that day, I went to the bar by myself and got pretty drunk.

He’s been sober his whole life, and I think that my drinking definitely drove a wedge between us in some ways. I don’t think it made us any lesser friends, but obviously, our time began getting spent separately during the weekends (and most weeknights) for that matter.

He’s been a huge constant in my life, and easily the best friend I’ve ever had. I’m so excited to see him, reconnect, and share this new me with him.

Went to Barnes and Noble today!

Treated myself to a whole bunch of Deepak Chopra books. Reaallly excited to dig into them.

Today, I actually feel great. I know not every day is going to be like this, so I’m soaking it in. Ran 3 miles. Want to actually start working toward my goal of running the NYC marathon this year.

I feel energized and rejuvenated. Still want a drink, though. Isn’t that crazy?

This is Day 3.